Be my dopamine

  

Be my dopamine

A game my mind has played for long & it does still,

to make 'mountain of a mole-hill'!

 

How and where to begin?

It’s the same story over and over again

Posts floating on instagram, facebook and twitter

Keep surfing aimlessly without knowing what I am looking for!

 

‘They would judge me’ an unpleasant thought occurs

But then I recall that ‘we are not living to please others’

 

We become disillusioned as we grow

To me, the rampant red-tapism at work is such a garbage to throw

I think to myself ‘did I signup for this as I joined my organization'

Feels trapped in papers, meetings, processes- does my work even reach children?

Trust is elusive, wary of talking to colleagues, 

Most of us find 'writing' emails' more conclusive

 

I fear they'll throw me out as they read these lines

But I have learnt that there is no shame in speaking one's mind 

And many times, it bothers

then I recall '' Anxiety, stress, depression are caused when we are living to please others! (quoting Paulo Coelho)

 

I am the better half of a soldier

Where loneliness is life's order

Strangely, I happily lived alone for long, before taking the vow

So, is it the expectation of togetherness that often makes me feel so low?

I doubt myself as weak 'how can I complain while he is protecting the country from a mountain peak?' 

 

I doubt if its fine to confess that it bothers

But I recall '' Anxiety, stress, depression are caused when we are living to please others!

 

Hard to assess whether these are tough circumstances or my illusion

but my feeling of overwhelm is genuine

I choose to share & OPINE

 

Feeling restless, overwhelmed, lonely are all fine

Let’s bring on More kindness &

 

Hey, why dont you also be my Dopamine

  by Veena Singh,